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So there are a lot of people that I have been friends with for like...as long as I have lived here. But the thing about life is that your circle of friends is constantly changing. And although I like to meet new people, I really really miss all the old people who don't have time for me because they are too busy with new friends. It also sucks because a lot of the time it seems like I know who someone is, but they don't know as much about me as I do about them. It's like we have hung out in a group before, but I have to wonder if we saw each other on the street, would they stop to say hi, or would they even recognize me? It's also hard to realize how much people have changed since I have known them. Take PAF for example. When I first met him, he was young and he just liked to have fun (I liked him best this way). Then he became one of those people who partied every night of the week. And while I could deal with it, it wasn't the best thing for him. Then he started going to church and found God etc, and while I am happy that he is so happy, he is a totally different person. I mean he used to be someone that I could everything that I was thinking, not matter how bad or crazy or whatever. But now, I can't even get him to answer his phone or call me back and I know that I can't have the same type of conversation with him because all that I get as an answer is go to church or  pray or something that is not the answer that i need. It is truly amazing how much people change in such a short time. I mean I was afraid of PT my freshman year because he yelled at me to get out of his way, but by our senior year we were likethis. And I often wonder if the reason that he doesn't have time to talk to me is because he thinks that I want more than just to talk to him and be his friend. I just wish that we could talk and hang out the way that we did before him and kz broke up, but that will never happen. He is too busy too hang out with me, plus he is busy making new friends, just like everyone else.